Wow... so I haven't written here in like, over a year o_O But do not fear! I have returned!!!

Finally, after two years of intense studying and exams I am allll done! I wrote the national exam on Tuesday and let's hope I never have to write an exam like that ever again because boy is it tiring! I can't really say if it went well or not since it was so long and I was so tired at the end. We had 180 multiple choice questions to answer from 9am to 12pm, and then another 160 questions from 1pm to 3:30pm. The morning wasn't all too bad, but by the end of the 160 questions in the afternoon I had to read the questions up to 10 times just to understand it.

So FINALY done school and starting to work at the city hospital on Monday. I'll be working in Hematology and the Blood Bank and I'm surprisingly excited about it lol. I had always told myself that I would never work in hematology yet I was particularly drawn to this job offer. I don’t know, maybe I see it as an exciting challenge for me. And heck, if I don't like it I have job offers elsewhere that I can take. I'm pretty sure I'll be happy there though. It looks like a really nice place to work.

It's surprisingly strange to have nothing to do when I get home now. I'm so used to getting home from school and thinking "Holy crap! I need to study! I have like 3 exams by the end of the week!" and now I'm coming home and thinking "Huh... *scratches head* what do I do?” It's kind of nice lol

So nooooow, that means I have more time for RPG's and drawings! Yay! I already have a nice pile of drawings that I plan to color! And I have even more ideas of pictures I want to draw XD It also means I can play D&D without constantly thinking "I should be studying right now" for once.

*dances*

Current Mood: cheerful

I have at least 15 exams scheduled for the next 4 weeks o_o

Next week I have 6 exams alone... (3 microbiology (1 day theory and 2 days of lab), Biocemestry II, Phlebotomy and Transfusion Sciences II)

My brain.... it hurts...

Oh, and if I fail a lab part of a course, I auto fail the theory course that goes with it. I have a right to retake 2 exams total in the 2 years I'm studying. If I fail just 1 course I get kicked out of the program...

No pressure....

Current Mood: blank

Most of you know that my father has been sick for quite some time now. We nearly lost him last year, but by some miracle he got better and was able to dance with me on my wedding day that summer.

Since november, the cancer began to grow again, and for the past few months things had begun to decline rather rapidly. So after 20 months of fighting cancer, my father passed away tuesday, April 3rd at 5:15 am.

That weekend was just dreadfull. The cancer had reached his brain so he had to remain sedated (the cancer made him go into rages) and although the meds made sure he didn't feel pain, it was difficulte to sit by and watch him just struggle to breath. Slept at the hospital on saturday and sunday they told us that he could go at any minute. Ends up it was a lot more minutes than they had expected.

Slept at the hospital on Sunday and monday I was so tired and exhusted that my mom convinced me to go and sleep at home that night. Dad had been mostly steady that day and it actually seemed like he would go on for another few days.

Got a call at 5:20 from my mom, who told me that he had stopped breathing but that it had been a very peacefull quick death. She didn't even have time to go get my sister only 2 rooms down.

The family is okay, and so am I. He had been struggling for so long and it was actually more painfull to sit and wait, watching him struggle then it was to hear he was gone. In a way it was sort of a relief, that he's in a better place now with no more pain and watching over us. We're just happy that he's not going to suffer anymore.

So yeah, I'm going to be okay. I was mostly okay at the funeral home today, but cried a lot at the end when we said prayers and stuff. I was blown away at the number of people who showed up (over 250). The funeral home was lined up all the way outisde, and it wasn't a small funeral home either. It was just touching to see that so many people loved him and cared for our family.

So, big thank you to everyone for your thoughts and prayers. It's been a long roller coaster ride, but it's finaly over now.

YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I WANNA KNOW YOU... I want to know 34 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other.

1. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. What zodiac sign are you?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?
10. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal?
11. What is your favorite sport?
12. Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15. Tell me one weird fact about you.
16. Do you have any pets?
17. Do you know how to do the Macarena?
18. What time is it where you are now?
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21. Would you be my partner in crime or my conscience?
22. What color eyes do you have?
23. Ever been arrested?
24. Bottle or Draft?
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
27. What's your favorite bar to hang at?
28. Do you believe in ghosts?
29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30. Do you swear a lot?
31. Biggest pet peeve?
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33. In one word, how would you describe me?
34. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

Current Mood: crazy

Really... Where'd it go? The week went by so fast it's not even funny. And now, after slacking off for the time I had, I'm dreading going back to class. I'm scared I guess. Things were getting so crazy and hectic the week before break, I nearly broke down the last morning of class. It's just that I know there won't be another break until the end of June. I'm worried that I'll suddenly start slacking off. That so far all of my good grades have been some phase and that I'm going to fall back into my old habits, flunk out and disapoint myself and everyone around me. I want this so bad, and in a way I guess I can't beleive it's all happening. Truth be told, I've always wanted this, but at times I led myself to believe that this was nothing but a dream, and that I didn't really have what it took to achieve it. I mean, I know better, but sometimes I look at how far I've come and I feel like it's just a crazy dream. Meh, it's weird. I'm also in a weird mood today so don't mine me...

Had a really fun week though. I got to hang out with a lot of my friends, some that I hadn't seen in a long time. It was really a lot of fun! Artwise I barely got anything done. Posted a finished picture on deviantart but it's far from my best. At least I got something done though lol

Anyways, that's all for now I guess. Just wanted to post something to say I'm still alive and hopefuly I'll survive my crazy university schedule and I'll be back end of June ;)

Current Mood: nervous

Alrighty... dunno whatI'm still doing up at this hour but I know it'll be hell to wake up and study tomorrow morning >.<

I started by downloading a Final Fantasy XII music video... then I started hunting for more. Then I started looking for fanart and char pages, then I went on DA and looked at fanart. Now I've become a crazy Fran/Balthier fangirl cause hot damn I found the sexiest pic of them on DA (which I faved of course) and now I can't stop drooling over it. Man do they ever make a hot couple.

So yeah.... I'm still awake. I guess I had to share my fangirl craze for the moment...

Seriously, I haven't had a chance to play FFXII yet but from what I've seen from watching Pete play it's my favorite Final Fantasy game so far. All the characters are awesome and look awesome. There's only 2 chars I'm not crazy about and I don't even find them annoying. I just care about them a lot less than the others ^^;;

What I love best about the game is that it's NOT a huge sappy love story between 2 main characters. I haven't seen an official couple forming as of yet, which I find is a nice change.

...I should go to bed.

Current Mood: crazy

Hehe ^_^ Titles says it all. Hope you have a great day! :D

Current Mood: bouncy

So... I took a look at the next few weeks in my agenda to see how things are going to look exam wise. Oh boy...

After my test this week, I have 2 tests to look forward to next week, and then a beautiful 6 final exams the week after that o_o Just a little panicked now. If I can time my studying right I should be able to survive it, right?

One thing is for certain, I'm getting wasted on the 22nd after my last exam XD

Current Mood: nervous

Yay! I did a test yesterday in Histology and to our great surprise our prof had them all corrected this morning when we were in the lab. It was surprising since it usualy takes hime a few weeks to do. Anyways, I ended up getting 100% on it, which makes me very very happy.

The prof thinks it's funny that the whole class is very competitive since Lab technologist are in such high demand that they don't look at our grades at all when it comes to getting jobs. Somehow I can't help it though, I find it makes me study harder in a way when I'm trying beat someone else. So far I'm the second or third best in my class, and I intend to stay there, even somehow try to make it to 1st lol

Current Mood: bouncy

Taken from chibimerrick's journal ^_^ Couldn't help myself.

You are The Lovers

Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.

The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.

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Current Mood: content